This post is a four-part series:
  • Remembering to Love Our Soul Brothers and Sisters Disguised As Enemies (1st)
  • Choosing To Be My Own Best Friend (2nd)
  • 4:44 (3rd)
  • Epiphany! (4th)

A Continuation from the post, “Choosing To Be My Own Best Friend”:

October 25, 2012 (Thursday)

After I finished writing this post yesterday, I looked up and saw 4:44 on the clock, a number sequence I had never seen before on a clock or anywhere else. I’ve seen 3:33 before, as well as other prompts, but not this one. So I looked up the meaning:

  • Number 444 resonates with the Archangels, practicality and productivity, honesty and wisdom, order and responsibility.  With three 4’s appearing, the influences and energies of thenumber 4 are magnified and enhanced.  4 is the number of energy, harmony and is the door to illumination, rewards for hard work well done, patience and purpose, passion and drive. Angel Number 444 is a message that the angels and Archangels are with you, encouraging and guiding you.  They are offering you inner-strength and support to enable you to get the work done that you need to.  They know and understand that you have been toiling diligently towards your goals, and encourage you to continue on your current path to achieve the success and results you desire. Use your strong connection with the angelic realm to your benefit and be open to their promptings and messages.  Listen to your intuition and follow its guidance. Angel Number 444 is a message that you have nothing to fear in regards to your life, work and Divine life purpose and soul mission.  Know that the angels surround and support you, encouraging you to keep up the good work you have been doing.
    The repeating Angel Number 444 is a message that ‘all is well’.  Trust that you are on your correct life path and are doing a great job.

The angels and Archangels are available for help and guidance  –  all you need to do is ask. By: http://sacredscribesangelnumbers.blogspot.com

444 — Thousands of angels surround you at this moment, loving and supporting you. You have a very strong and clear connection with the angelic realm, and are an Earth angel yourself. You have nothing to fear—all is well. By: http://spiritlibrary.com/doreen-virtue/angel-numbers AND http://sherryandrea.com/meanings-of-444/

Anyway, I was going to slowly make my way out of Becky’s life; however, I decided to get it over with, so I texted her the following messages:

  • My message: Becky, I’m going to spend a lot of time now taking care of matters that involve me, my family, and my few close friends from junior high school. I hope things get better for you, that you make good friends, and you enjoy the holidays with your loved ones.
  • Becky’s reply: R we not going to talk anymore? I feel like I did something wrong. Note: I used to talk to her about how I felt about her insensitive actions, but after so many times…I felt like I was better off talking to a wall because she denies everything or makes excuses.
  • My last reply: Something came up that I don’t feel like talking about right now. I don’t need anymore negativity in my life. I have no doubt that your family will be of great support to you. Stay positive Becky.

I’m grateful for Jonathan’s feedback. He’s right, I can’t force her to be a decent friend (let alone a great friend) or a positive and loving person, although her true nature is Love, like everyone else. I’m obviously not in a place (a spiritual level) right now where I can be 100% unconditional love. I was only willing to be her friend if I felt she was loyal to me; and the experience after dinner told me once again that she wasn’t trustworthy.

You would think I’d no longer want to be her friend by the fact that she still hasn’t paid me all of the money that she’s borrowed from me and never paid back, but it’s not even that. Even though she mentions how she eats out or goes shopping at Walmart, I still didn’t need her to pay me right away. But it’s perfectly normal to want a friend who’s loyal and not two-faced. Anyway, I also had an expectation, as minuscule as it may have been. I had hope that she would change for the better…at least be a little more positive…rather than continuously be negative every time I talk to her or see her.

Now that I’ve embraced the fact that we are both better off going separate paths, I feel so liberated. I wish both of us the best. Like I told Jonathan, I choose to respect and love myself first by choosing not to be around so much negativity that brings me down. I’d rather not have a friend, then have one that often brings me down and doesn’t appreciate my friendship.

The truth is, I wanted to love her unconditionally like God loves us, but who was I kidding? I don’t even think I fully love myself unconditionally yet! And until I do, I can’t expect to love anyone else unconditionally, especially God.


~ by Bobbie on October 25, 2012.

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